Sunday, May 11, 2008

I'm Miserable

Midnight rants like these rarely make sense, so I won't even try to. I have decided to just let things flow from my brain out my fingertips and onto the keyboard. I wouldn't be surprised if any of you get cross eyed reading this, because judging from the blurriness of my vision, that's exactly what condition my eyes are in.

These days I don't think I'm enjoying stuff as much as I should be. I'm always excited about what I'm "going to do next" and when I get there, I'm already excited about the next thing after that, which is to say I'm not totally absorbing the experience. *sigh* I really need to be home.

I'm sick of a certain government organization screwing up their job, which in turn means I might be screwed. If this prolongs my stint in college, I swear they will have boils on their asses for generations to come.

I fear that I'm turning into a hermit. I'm already borderline, I think. I spent the whole day in my room today. Reading. I enjoy it, don't get me wrong. But some people might think differently. I can fool myself into believing that in this little room, I'm home. Once I step outside, it's glaringly obvious that I'm not. :( My brothers and sisters aren't here for me to bother. My nenek (grandmother) is not there for me to bug. There isn't readily available food on the table. I don't even HAVE a table here! *SOB* A measly little coffee table set in front of a tv that doesn't work.

Why the hell didn't they set up my exams closer together? No, they had to make me suffer. I have 2 whole weeks right in the middle of my 2 papers. How cruel is that? I would've been home a lot earlier if not for those sadistic evil minions in the exam department.

I seem to always want to take it out on the world whenever I can't sleep. Is there a condition that explain this? Maybe. They have conditions explaining an attachment to cellphones, so why not this.

*sob*

I'm going crazy. Lack of sleep is making me babble like a nervous teenager facing her crush for the first time.

Well I envy you, teenager. I bet you sleep a lot more easily than I do.

Maybe apple pie will help. But not at this hour.

*sigh*

3 comments:

Nick Phillips said...

LOL! I've never heard of ANY government organization that doesn't screw up anything!

Hope you get whatever it is settled soon.

maslight said...

awww u poor thing..

if it makes u feel any better, u successfully make me suffer with u T_T woo woo~ i wan compy to be home. T_T yeah they jeles tu, dat's why they sengaja set the date so far apart T_T

i'm making it worst aren't i? ogie, reverse, hmmm YOU'LL BE HOME!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Felicia F. Ramzi said...

sounded like me back when i was in Uni, only i enjoyed the gaps. papers were terribly difficult and sleeping is not an option. Ops, im not helping either am i? ok ok tak..hmm why not u go watch movie marathon..or korean series just to kill time? i tell u, sekali dah hook, u wont think about exams or home anymore..okay?? best of luck for your paper girl..(",)